A Legacy????

Today, while talking to a colleague of mine, it suddenly dawn on me that I've been wanting to seek for myself to know what kind of legacy I want to leave behind someday.... After all, why else should I be here in the first place, right???

As I ponder about this in my heart, I knew for sure that it is certainly not the corporate rat race I'm chasing... you know, people say if you don't have money, you can't do the things you want... or have comfortable life... (both very subjective). I realised to an extent that how we live our lives is an entirely different story from how much money we have... though having lots of dough would be a big help... Just imagine working day and night, just to earn money and respect (some may say??), but at the end of it, what else have you achieve... What about your dreams??? Or ambition??? I strongly believe when we were young, becoming millionaires are just what we tell our friends... deep down inside, surely there is something else???

As for me, well, when I was still young and silly, (not sure whether I've grown much smarter nowadays... I mean definitely older, not necessarily wiser), I thought I'd be a piano teacher or a piano examiner or an accountant (these three are usually what I wrote in the records which we were supposed to fill in every year, I think), BUT, at the back of my mind, I thought of becoming a nun someday so that I could focus on helping others... It's actually weird cause at that time, I was still a Buddhist (freethinker in my own mind), while nun is Catholic... well, now I'm a Christian, not a Catholic.... So, I guess it's back to square one, to re-evaluate on my life dream and maybe to actually chase after it (or fulfill it... )... I think friends or anyone else for that matter is of no help when they don't understand why you thought of doing something... Can you imagine, there are some people who mention Sound of Music or Mother Theresa as the cause for this... Well, actually during that time Sound of Music was just MUSIC... and I had no idea who was Mother Theresa back then...

Another dream was going to England, well maybe this one, my grandmother may have played a part when she mentioned the beautiful scenery... but somehow there was something inside that makes want to go there someday... Definitely, not Prince William (as suggested by some friends back in my teens)... hullo, I'd no idea he existed until they point out an article with him... OR maybe it was football, cause I like to catch EPL... when I was much younger... before I started school, I think... Anyway, I have to start thinking and take ACTION of course... that is when I finally figure that out...

In the mean time, have to continue wondering what on earth am I doing HERE???